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Ya it’s Saturday. But I’m just happy that I finally am able to write at all. It’s obvious I haven’t been on here for awhile and there are plenty of good reasons why. If you are interested in what has been going on you can check it out on my shop blog here.  I just really don’t feel like writing that all up again. And also I don’t want to relive some of those feelings I had while writing it.
So now it’s time to do this confession thing.  It will be pretty random, but that’s just who I am.
♥   I can tell that I’ve been struggling hard care lately with the lack of blogging. It has also affected me in pretty much everything else.
♥   I really hate going to funerals. But at the same time I feel that it refreshes me to not take things for granted and to live each day as if it was your last.
♥   Because of this I’m determined to some things I’ve been wanting to do. Just because I want to. Like learning new languages.
♥   My plans are to study Spanish, French, and Italian.
♥   I know very random, but I have my reasons.
♥   I have also been reevaluating bigger things in my life. Like to not worry about what others thing so much anymore. I won’t lie, I hate making enemies. But sometimes no matter how much you try to make things right or how nice and giving you try to to be, sometimes those people are just plain dicks and don’t deserve YOUR friendship anyway. So really, quit forcing it. Move on to people that do care and focus on making every moment count with them instead. 
♥   Regarding my last comment, I am VERY thankful for the people that I do talk to. Everyday. You mean the world to me. I love you I love you I love you. You make everything run so much smoother and have this charm that always seems to make me smile. YOU ARE AMAZING.
♥  Also I’ve had to make some very big decisions to cut certain people out of my life.  It was difficult. If I am going to try and have a happy life, I can’t have their negativity poisoning every moment.  I can’t have them twist my every word into something bad when really it’s not like that, but they refuse to listen. I can only try so much. I can only give so much to you before I can tell it’s taking a toll on MY family life.  
♥   It’s really hard to be motivated to do anything when you have two major events happen in a row. I know that I will bounce back and I’m hoping that it will kick in soon. I can tell that in ways I’m trying to fake certain feelings, but really…….it will only get me so far.
♥   I have a lot of major changes I need to make in my life, but I’m a little overwhelmed where to start.
I can’t promise right now that I’ll be better at blogging. I’m still grieving in ways of losing two people so close together. One through cancer and one because differences in opinions has torn us apart. I think in ways I’m still in shock and numb, but I know that today I am better than where I was last week. And I know next week I’ll be better than I am today. I have a wonderful opportunity that I’m hoping will happen. And if I do I will for sure be sharing the good news. This will probably be the best news I’ve had all year.
Regarding my ankle issue, it looks like I WON’T be getting surgery. I have nerve damage that we are trying to work on in other ways. I’m also going to physical therapy and that seems to be helping. Even though I’ve only been twice.
Now it’s time to start my day. And to find the motivation to get me off of this incredibly comfy couch. Every time I try to get up it seems to suck me back in. (But then I remember I have some shopping to do and it seems to make everything easier) 😉

Goodbye for now. I hope you have a great weekend.

xo
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Even though I’m currently not working and my kids are out of school, you would think that the days would blend together and I wouldn’t be able to tell the difference. Well guess what….. I CAN tell the difference and to me there is something so special about Friday’s that make me so happy. I just LOVE Friday nights.  I have so many great memories and for some reason I just feel this sense of peace that I made it through another week…….
And now my friends, it’s confession time!
♥   This week definitely has had it’s ups and downs, but I have to say, after my Dr. appointment yesterday I am feeling great.
♥   I’m really annoyed how people think just because you can’t see pain they think it shouldn’t be there. Guess what jerks. Just because you can’t see it doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist.
♥   I’m really happy this doctor doesn’t think I need surgery. Surgery freaks me out.
♥   I’m also really happy this doctor gave me some options and is sending me back to physical therapy. AND gave me medicine to help with the neurological pain.
♥   Nerve pain REALLY sucks.
♥   I’m irritated that this other doctor I went to gave me NO OPTIONS.  I felt like he just wanted me out of there and didn’t want to bother resolving what’s going on with me.
♥   I’m seriously so sick and tired of this and want everything better.
♥   I’m excited to get back to work and at the same time I’m not.  I’m not looking forward to dealing with people who are going to smother me just because they are nosy and want to know everything.  Not because they actually care.
♥   I absolutely cannot stand when people are fake with me.
♥   I don’t care if you don’t like me, but don’t be sweet to my face then turn around and dig the knife in. Just ignore me. I’ll be fine. PROMISE. 😉
♥   I wish that one of these days I could get the guts to tell this to someone face to face.
♥   On a happier note no surgery!!!!!!!
♥   YAY!!!!!!!!!
♥   Oh and I’m totally geeking out because Felicia Day sent me a tweet on Twitter. (seriously I about died with happy geekness)
♥   I heart her and I LOVE The Guild.
Hmmmm…..apparently I have some built up anger, but really I am good! I am looking at this opportunity to spend time with the little ones and be able to do things we haven’t been able to do for quite a while.
Now that I mentioned the Guild, I’m having a crazy hankering to play some W.O.W., eat some ice cream and watch some Zoolander. Kids are in bed so I need to take advantage. 🙂
I hope you all have a great weekend and Happy Fathers day to all of you deserving fathers out there! I am sad my father is not here to celebrate him, but he is in my heart and I will just use the time to celebrate my Father in law. He is just as wonderful. 🙂
And for now,
GOODNIGHT!!!!!
♥ xoxo ♥

 

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Ok I am finally here.  I won’t lie, I haven’t been in much of a mood to write lately because of a lot of things going on in my life that have been occupying me.  But I figured that if I force myself to write tonight maybe I can make myself get back in the writing mood all together. We’ll see how it goes.

Well tonight my brain is focused on vacations and traveling. I LOVE to travel. And we decided for our anniversary this year that we want to go to Disneyland. I’m excited because I have been very careful with saving and made sure that I was limiting myself on spending so I could put the money away to somewhere I knew would be worthwhile. We also discussed going to Hawaii in the next 2 years and taking his parents and sister and her hubs with us. I don’t have a huge bucket list, but I do know that going to Hawaii is on that list. I have always had a love for that culture and if I could be a beach bum I would. I LOVE the hibiscus flower. It’s my favorite and I love it so much that I chose to have this flower with me forever.

So for tonight I have chosen to focus on my favorite flower.

 

I am all about night lights. I am not a dark fan and I love how sweet and simple this is.   (source)

I’m hoping one day that I can get my own art room. And I actually have been wanting it beach themed with Hawaiian accents thrown in there.

I would definitely get this.   (source)

I have been wanting a necklace like this and I’m SO happy that I finally found one I really really like!  (source)

I SO wish I would have found this for my wedding! I would have gone perfect with my dress!! (source)

I love lighting. To me it’s so calming and I feel so peaceful when I have calming lights around me.
This I would definitely have. It’s pretty and I love the lights with it.  (source)

This is making me crave the beach so much. It’s been years since I’ve been and I can tell that I’m having severe withdrawals from it. And looking at all of these are giving me great ideas on more art projects. (which I have more I’ll be posting soon!!!)

I hope you all have a lovely night. Now it’s time for me to relax and snuggle with the hubs.

♥xoxo♥

 

Yes it’s Monday. But it has felt like it’s been Friday all weekend since it blended together. I’ve been sick and miserable and I’ve had to put everything on hold. I feel bad, but really I didn’t have much of a choice.  So now it’s time to confess!

 

♥   First off I am really tired of the rain. It’s been raining almost everyday and I think that is why I have been getting so sick. I need sun!

♥   I’m still having a hard time adjusting to not working. I feel like I plan better when I’m under pressure. Which totally does not make sense to me.

♥   It’s the last week of school. What the crap am I going to do?

♥   On the bright side even though I’m still gimpy, I do have plans with the little ones to try and keep them occupied.

♥   This is the first time I’ve been home with the kids during the summer since they were born.

♥   Even though they can be little buggars, I am excited for it. 🙂

♥   I hope that I can get back in my groove of blogging. I feel being sick has taken over and not make me want to do anything.

♥   I am in love with my new little niece. 🙂

♥   Um……..she is a German Shepard puppy. 🙂

♥   I still call her my niece though. 🙂

 

Ok, time for more rest. I am completely exhausted and need some rest for tomorrow. Really I’m glad it’s the last week of school. At least I won’t have to rush to get them out the door.

Hope you all had a wonderful Memorial day.

 

Night.

 

♥ xoxo ♥

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