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Ya it’s Saturday. But I’m just happy that I finally am able to write at all. It’s obvious I haven’t been on here for awhile and there are plenty of good reasons why. If you are interested in what has been going on you can check it out on my shop blog here.  I just really don’t feel like writing that all up again. And also I don’t want to relive some of those feelings I had while writing it.
So now it’s time to do this confession thing.  It will be pretty random, but that’s just who I am.
♥   I can tell that I’ve been struggling hard care lately with the lack of blogging. It has also affected me in pretty much everything else.
♥   I really hate going to funerals. But at the same time I feel that it refreshes me to not take things for granted and to live each day as if it was your last.
♥   Because of this I’m determined to some things I’ve been wanting to do. Just because I want to. Like learning new languages.
♥   My plans are to study Spanish, French, and Italian.
♥   I know very random, but I have my reasons.
♥   I have also been reevaluating bigger things in my life. Like to not worry about what others thing so much anymore. I won’t lie, I hate making enemies. But sometimes no matter how much you try to make things right or how nice and giving you try to to be, sometimes those people are just plain dicks and don’t deserve YOUR friendship anyway. So really, quit forcing it. Move on to people that do care and focus on making every moment count with them instead. 
♥   Regarding my last comment, I am VERY thankful for the people that I do talk to. Everyday. You mean the world to me. I love you I love you I love you. You make everything run so much smoother and have this charm that always seems to make me smile. YOU ARE AMAZING.
♥  Also I’ve had to make some very big decisions to cut certain people out of my life.  It was difficult. If I am going to try and have a happy life, I can’t have their negativity poisoning every moment.  I can’t have them twist my every word into something bad when really it’s not like that, but they refuse to listen. I can only try so much. I can only give so much to you before I can tell it’s taking a toll on MY family life.  
♥   It’s really hard to be motivated to do anything when you have two major events happen in a row. I know that I will bounce back and I’m hoping that it will kick in soon. I can tell that in ways I’m trying to fake certain feelings, but really…….it will only get me so far.
♥   I have a lot of major changes I need to make in my life, but I’m a little overwhelmed where to start.
I can’t promise right now that I’ll be better at blogging. I’m still grieving in ways of losing two people so close together. One through cancer and one because differences in opinions has torn us apart. I think in ways I’m still in shock and numb, but I know that today I am better than where I was last week. And I know next week I’ll be better than I am today. I have a wonderful opportunity that I’m hoping will happen. And if I do I will for sure be sharing the good news. This will probably be the best news I’ve had all year.
Regarding my ankle issue, it looks like I WON’T be getting surgery. I have nerve damage that we are trying to work on in other ways. I’m also going to physical therapy and that seems to be helping. Even though I’ve only been twice.
Now it’s time to start my day. And to find the motivation to get me off of this incredibly comfy couch. Every time I try to get up it seems to suck me back in. (But then I remember I have some shopping to do and it seems to make everything easier) 😉

Goodbye for now. I hope you have a great weekend.

xo
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Oh my gosh YAY IT’S FRIDAY!!!!!! Oh I’m SO happy…..What a week it’s been and I’m SO glad that this day is here because it means that it’s FINALLY coming to a close!!!

So my confessions for this week are:

♥   As I said in my previous post I was given some not so fun news this week.  I won’t hear results till probably next week so for now I will be keep it quiet. But I will say that it does scare me. It was a lot for me to accept when I was diagnosed with Celiacs. Now that I may have other things on top of if really isn’t my cup of tea.

♥   I can’t believe that all of this is coming from a stupid fall down the stairs.

♥   I’m extra paranoid this week because now my 6 year old has pink eye. Lysol wipes have been a great buddy of mine. 🙂

♥   Even though this week has been emotional, scary, draining, exhausting, and depressing, I have received some VERY good news that makes me feel like I can conquer the WORLD!

♥   Unfortunately I can’t share what it is yet.

♥   But still one of the happiest news ever from such a dear sweet friend.  🙂 ( I know you are going to read this. Looooove yoooouuu!!!)

♥   Besides getting married and having kids of course. 🙂

♥   But I am also very happy because we are planning a trip to Disneyland this year. 🙂 Squeeeeeeeee

♥   If you don’t know me enough by now, my Disney obsession is HUGE.

♥   I was actually going to college to be an animator for Disney/Pixar.

♥   And I wanted to work at Disneyland as a side job.  But….I had another baby….and plans changed.

♥   The next closest thing I’ll be having is a princess party my SIL and I are planning together this year. She is going as Snow White and I’ll be Sleeping Beauty.  I seriously can’t wait!!

♥   I finally am getting the hubs into collecting the Disney Big Figs. So far we only have 3, but that will soon change.

♥   But we are naturally collectors and big time geeks anyways so it works. 🙂

I hope you all have a great weekend. I get to take care of a little pink eye child and maybe get a little break since it has been a long week.

Night

xo

Yes. It is Saturday. But when I heard that yesterday was a Bloggers day of Silence for Japan, I felt maybe it would be a good chance to take a break from the computer. I know not blogging isn’t going to magically help Japan and I am planning on doing some donations, but I still felt that I needed to stay away.

This week has been very emotional for me so this post may seem more gloomy then usual, but indeed I AM human and do have the downer days. In my case, a week. So my confession for this week is…….

♥ Being on steroids have been horrible. It has made me into the biggest bear and I can’t help it.
♥ I’m not on them anymore thank goodness.
♥ I just got an MRI yesterday to tell me what the heck is going on with my foot/ankle.
♥ It’s really starting to wear on me having to be so dependent on other people.
♥ I won’t lie. I have been feeling like a HUGE burden on others.
♥ Cracking jokes about my ankle is cutting it anymore.
♥ Because of my struggles, I have been getting more creative artistically.
♥ That’s my favorite way to “escape”.
♥  Focusing on my shop has helped me do what I can to stay positive.
♥  Luckily I have awesome kids that will allow me to to draw and paint all day.

I hope that you all have a wonderful weekend. I’ll be posting more often soon. I feel bad I’ve only been posting twice a week, but it’s been crazy hectic with going to doctor’s all the time and having to work late.  And I’ll even post some sneak peaks of some art going in my shop. 🙂

Also for further shop and art information, please go to http://abbeyroo.blogspot.com/ for updates!

♥ xoxo ♥

Me.

 

I look at this picture and try to remember what I was feeling that day.

 

I know that I was mixed with emotion.

 

Struggling.

 

In pain.

 

Happy.

 

Confused.

 

Thankful.

 

Why can’t I be happy with myself?

 

Sometimes I look at these pictures and think about the choices I have made and directions I have taken.

 

Why didn’t I take the other road?

 

I am stronger because of the pain I went through.

 

I am wiser.

 

I’ve made more mistakes.

 

I’ve learned from those mistakes.

 

Life has taken me on quite the journey. Lots of ups and downs.

 

But really if I hadn’t have taken those journey’s, I wouldn’t be who I am now.

 

 

 

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