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Ya it’s Saturday. But I’m just happy that I finally am able to write at all. It’s obvious I haven’t been on here for awhile and there are plenty of good reasons why. If you are interested in what has been going on you can check it out on my shop blog here. I just really don’t feel like writing that all up again. And also I don’t want to relive some of those feelings I had while writing it.
So now it’s time to do this confession thing. It will be pretty random, but that’s just who I am.
♥ I can tell that I’ve been struggling hard care lately with the lack of blogging. It has also affected me in pretty much everything else.
♥ I really hate going to funerals. But at the same time I feel that it refreshes me to not take things for granted and to live each day as if it was your last.
♥ Because of this I’m determined to some things I’ve been wanting to do. Just because I want to. Like learning new languages.
♥ My plans are to study Spanish, French, and Italian.
♥ I know very random, but I have my reasons.
♥ I have also been reevaluating bigger things in my life. Like to not worry about what others thing so much anymore. I won’t lie, I hate making enemies. But sometimes no matter how much you try to make things right or how nice and giving you try to to be, sometimes those people are just plain dicks and don’t deserve YOUR friendship anyway. So really, quit forcing it. Move on to people that do care and focus on making every moment count with them instead.
♥ Regarding my last comment, I am VERY thankful for the people that I do talk to. Everyday. You mean the world to me. I love you I love you I love you. You make everything run so much smoother and have this charm that always seems to make me smile. YOU ARE AMAZING.
♥ Also I’ve had to make some very big decisions to cut certain people out of my life. It was difficult. If I am going to try and have a happy life, I can’t have their negativity poisoning every moment. I can’t have them twist my every word into something bad when really it’s not like that, but they refuse to listen. I can only try so much. I can only give so much to you before I can tell it’s taking a toll on MY family life.
♥ It’s really hard to be motivated to do anything when you have two major events happen in a row. I know that I will bounce back and I’m hoping that it will kick in soon. I can tell that in ways I’m trying to fake certain feelings, but really…….it will only get me so far.
♥ I have a lot of major changes I need to make in my life, but I’m a little overwhelmed where to start.
I can’t promise right now that I’ll be better at blogging. I’m still grieving in ways of losing two people so close together. One through cancer and one because differences in opinions has torn us apart. I think in ways I’m still in shock and numb, but I know that today I am better than where I was last week. And I know next week I’ll be better than I am today. I have a wonderful opportunity that I’m hoping will happen. And if I do I will for sure be sharing the good news. This will probably be the best news I’ve had all year.
Regarding my ankle issue, it looks like I WON’T be getting surgery. I have nerve damage that we are trying to work on in other ways. I’m also going to physical therapy and that seems to be helping. Even though I’ve only been twice.
Now it’s time to start my day. And to find the motivation to get me off of this incredibly comfy couch. Every time I try to get up it seems to suck me back in. (But then I remember I have some shopping to do and it seems to make everything easier) 😉
Goodbye for now. I hope you have a great weekend.