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Oh my gosh YAY IT’S FRIDAY!!!!!! Oh I’m SO happy…..What a week it’s been and I’m SO glad that this day is here because it means that it’s FINALLY coming to a close!!!

So my confessions for this week are:

♥   As I said in my previous post I was given some not so fun news this week.  I won’t hear results till probably next week so for now I will be keep it quiet. But I will say that it does scare me. It was a lot for me to accept when I was diagnosed with Celiacs. Now that I may have other things on top of if really isn’t my cup of tea.

♥   I can’t believe that all of this is coming from a stupid fall down the stairs.

♥   I’m extra paranoid this week because now my 6 year old has pink eye. Lysol wipes have been a great buddy of mine. 🙂

♥   Even though this week has been emotional, scary, draining, exhausting, and depressing, I have received some VERY good news that makes me feel like I can conquer the WORLD!

♥   Unfortunately I can’t share what it is yet.

♥   But still one of the happiest news ever from such a dear sweet friend.  🙂 ( I know you are going to read this. Looooove yoooouuu!!!)

♥   Besides getting married and having kids of course. 🙂

♥   But I am also very happy because we are planning a trip to Disneyland this year. 🙂 Squeeeeeeeee

♥   If you don’t know me enough by now, my Disney obsession is HUGE.

♥   I was actually going to college to be an animator for Disney/Pixar.

♥   And I wanted to work at Disneyland as a side job.  But….I had another baby….and plans changed.

♥   The next closest thing I’ll be having is a princess party my SIL and I are planning together this year. She is going as Snow White and I’ll be Sleeping Beauty.  I seriously can’t wait!!

♥   I finally am getting the hubs into collecting the Disney Big Figs. So far we only have 3, but that will soon change.

♥   But we are naturally collectors and big time geeks anyways so it works. 🙂

I hope you all have a great weekend. I get to take care of a little pink eye child and maybe get a little break since it has been a long week.

Night

xo

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Yes. It is Saturday. But when I heard that yesterday was a Bloggers day of Silence for Japan, I felt maybe it would be a good chance to take a break from the computer. I know not blogging isn’t going to magically help Japan and I am planning on doing some donations, but I still felt that I needed to stay away.

This week has been very emotional for me so this post may seem more gloomy then usual, but indeed I AM human and do have the downer days. In my case, a week. So my confession for this week is…….

♥ Being on steroids have been horrible. It has made me into the biggest bear and I can’t help it.
♥ I’m not on them anymore thank goodness.
♥ I just got an MRI yesterday to tell me what the heck is going on with my foot/ankle.
♥ It’s really starting to wear on me having to be so dependent on other people.
♥ I won’t lie. I have been feeling like a HUGE burden on others.
♥ Cracking jokes about my ankle is cutting it anymore.
♥ Because of my struggles, I have been getting more creative artistically.
♥ That’s my favorite way to “escape”.
♥  Focusing on my shop has helped me do what I can to stay positive.
♥  Luckily I have awesome kids that will allow me to to draw and paint all day.

I hope that you all have a wonderful weekend. I’ll be posting more often soon. I feel bad I’ve only been posting twice a week, but it’s been crazy hectic with going to doctor’s all the time and having to work late.  And I’ll even post some sneak peaks of some art going in my shop. 🙂

Also for further shop and art information, please go to http://abbeyroo.blogspot.com/ for updates!

♥ xoxo ♥

Me.

 

I look at this picture and try to remember what I was feeling that day.

 

I know that I was mixed with emotion.

 

Struggling.

 

In pain.

 

Happy.

 

Confused.

 

Thankful.

 

Why can’t I be happy with myself?

 

Sometimes I look at these pictures and think about the choices I have made and directions I have taken.

 

Why didn’t I take the other road?

 

I am stronger because of the pain I went through.

 

I am wiser.

 

I’ve made more mistakes.

 

I’ve learned from those mistakes.

 

Life has taken me on quite the journey. Lots of ups and downs.

 

But really if I hadn’t have taken those journey’s, I wouldn’t be who I am now.

 

 

 

Eek. This is kind of an ugly one.  But again I kind of like the idea of this because I know the person this would be towards doesn’t ever read my blog, nor are we friends on FB, twitter, anything.  So I guess that I could let it fly. I’m not really a harsh person and tend to be overly friendly and do what I can to prevent hurt feelings. I can tell though as I get older that I’m getting more vocal about things. (I actually kinda like it. No more walking all over me! *shakes fist*)

To me it’s not worth writing this long letter to this certain person as I am doing what I can to forget the whole issue. But since this 30 day challenge likes to dig up old dirt and hurt feelings, I shall humor you…………..

Dear  he/she who shall not be named,

I feel sorry for you. I feel sorry that you feel the need to act childish about such an issue and let it poison you every day. It’s too bad that instead of being adults and working things out like true friends do, you chose the different route to be 12 again. I feel sorry that you have such a twisted perspective of the whole issue instead of hearing the truth that you feel the urge to project your anger on all those around you. I truly adored you and gave my friendship to you. I’m also sorry that you don’t get to have this friendship anymore because I know that I have such unconditional, genuine love for my friends and loved ones. You don’t get to have that anymore. Instead you will continue your search to find some acceptance from someone that you will end up rejecting anyway because of your severe insecurities.

I do hope one day that you will find happiness because everyone does deserve to have something dear in their life to hold on to.

I hope that you will eventually move on and stop trying to torture those around you to further yourself. It won’t work.

After I finish this letter I will continue to do what I can to forget because you are not worth remembering the hurt that you have given.

I am going to move on.

You should do the same.

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