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Ya it’s Saturday. But I’m just happy that I finally am able to write at all. It’s obvious I haven’t been on here for awhile and there are plenty of good reasons why. If you are interested in what has been going on you can check it out on my shop blog here.  I just really don’t feel like writing that all up again. And also I don’t want to relive some of those feelings I had while writing it.
So now it’s time to do this confession thing.  It will be pretty random, but that’s just who I am.
♥   I can tell that I’ve been struggling hard care lately with the lack of blogging. It has also affected me in pretty much everything else.
♥   I really hate going to funerals. But at the same time I feel that it refreshes me to not take things for granted and to live each day as if it was your last.
♥   Because of this I’m determined to some things I’ve been wanting to do. Just because I want to. Like learning new languages.
♥   My plans are to study Spanish, French, and Italian.
♥   I know very random, but I have my reasons.
♥   I have also been reevaluating bigger things in my life. Like to not worry about what others thing so much anymore. I won’t lie, I hate making enemies. But sometimes no matter how much you try to make things right or how nice and giving you try to to be, sometimes those people are just plain dicks and don’t deserve YOUR friendship anyway. So really, quit forcing it. Move on to people that do care and focus on making every moment count with them instead. 
♥   Regarding my last comment, I am VERY thankful for the people that I do talk to. Everyday. You mean the world to me. I love you I love you I love you. You make everything run so much smoother and have this charm that always seems to make me smile. YOU ARE AMAZING.
♥  Also I’ve had to make some very big decisions to cut certain people out of my life.  It was difficult. If I am going to try and have a happy life, I can’t have their negativity poisoning every moment.  I can’t have them twist my every word into something bad when really it’s not like that, but they refuse to listen. I can only try so much. I can only give so much to you before I can tell it’s taking a toll on MY family life.  
♥   It’s really hard to be motivated to do anything when you have two major events happen in a row. I know that I will bounce back and I’m hoping that it will kick in soon. I can tell that in ways I’m trying to fake certain feelings, but really…….it will only get me so far.
♥   I have a lot of major changes I need to make in my life, but I’m a little overwhelmed where to start.
I can’t promise right now that I’ll be better at blogging. I’m still grieving in ways of losing two people so close together. One through cancer and one because differences in opinions has torn us apart. I think in ways I’m still in shock and numb, but I know that today I am better than where I was last week. And I know next week I’ll be better than I am today. I have a wonderful opportunity that I’m hoping will happen. And if I do I will for sure be sharing the good news. This will probably be the best news I’ve had all year.
Regarding my ankle issue, it looks like I WON’T be getting surgery. I have nerve damage that we are trying to work on in other ways. I’m also going to physical therapy and that seems to be helping. Even though I’ve only been twice.
Now it’s time to start my day. And to find the motivation to get me off of this incredibly comfy couch. Every time I try to get up it seems to suck me back in. (But then I remember I have some shopping to do and it seems to make everything easier) 😉

Goodbye for now. I hope you have a great weekend.

xo
Even though I’m currently not working and my kids are out of school, you would think that the days would blend together and I wouldn’t be able to tell the difference. Well guess what….. I CAN tell the difference and to me there is something so special about Friday’s that make me so happy. I just LOVE Friday nights.  I have so many great memories and for some reason I just feel this sense of peace that I made it through another week…….
And now my friends, it’s confession time!
♥   This week definitely has had it’s ups and downs, but I have to say, after my Dr. appointment yesterday I am feeling great.
♥   I’m really annoyed how people think just because you can’t see pain they think it shouldn’t be there. Guess what jerks. Just because you can’t see it doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist.
♥   I’m really happy this doctor doesn’t think I need surgery. Surgery freaks me out.
♥   I’m also really happy this doctor gave me some options and is sending me back to physical therapy. AND gave me medicine to help with the neurological pain.
♥   Nerve pain REALLY sucks.
♥   I’m irritated that this other doctor I went to gave me NO OPTIONS.  I felt like he just wanted me out of there and didn’t want to bother resolving what’s going on with me.
♥   I’m seriously so sick and tired of this and want everything better.
♥   I’m excited to get back to work and at the same time I’m not.  I’m not looking forward to dealing with people who are going to smother me just because they are nosy and want to know everything.  Not because they actually care.
♥   I absolutely cannot stand when people are fake with me.
♥   I don’t care if you don’t like me, but don’t be sweet to my face then turn around and dig the knife in. Just ignore me. I’ll be fine. PROMISE. 😉
♥   I wish that one of these days I could get the guts to tell this to someone face to face.
♥   On a happier note no surgery!!!!!!!
♥   YAY!!!!!!!!!
♥   Oh and I’m totally geeking out because Felicia Day sent me a tweet on Twitter. (seriously I about died with happy geekness)
♥   I heart her and I LOVE The Guild.
Hmmmm…..apparently I have some built up anger, but really I am good! I am looking at this opportunity to spend time with the little ones and be able to do things we haven’t been able to do for quite a while.
Now that I mentioned the Guild, I’m having a crazy hankering to play some W.O.W., eat some ice cream and watch some Zoolander. Kids are in bed so I need to take advantage. 🙂
I hope you all have a great weekend and Happy Fathers day to all of you deserving fathers out there! I am sad my father is not here to celebrate him, but he is in my heart and I will just use the time to celebrate my Father in law. He is just as wonderful. 🙂
And for now,
GOODNIGHT!!!!!
♥ xoxo ♥

 

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Oh yay Friday. One of the reasons why I love you so much is because I don’t have to wake up early tomorrow to get kids off to school.  And what would be even better is if this weather would stop raining so much.  I actually planted some flowers today and it was weird that I had to bundle up before going out. But oh how nice of the sun to decide to come out AFTER I planted my flowers. THANK YOU SO MUCH.

And now that it’s Friday, it’s confession time!!!!!!

♥   I secretly wish I could be a professional chef.

♥   I have been told that I watch The Food Network  the way a man watches porn.

♥   I could seriously watch Food Network all day and not get bored.

♥   I think it started when watching Julia Child when I was a child.

♥   I wish I lived in England.

♥   I have had a fascination with England since I was little.

♥   This is so girly, but I so want an English Cottage with English garden.

♥   One of my favorite shows of all time is “Keeping up appearances”.

♥   I told my SIL if something was to ever happen with our hubby’s, we should move to England and live in a Victorian house and make a giant garden.

♥   My husband thinks I’m crazy.

♥   I’m excited that I finally have my own yard to start building my dream flower garden.

♥   Um……….it’s still pretty naked.

♥   Don’t judge.

♥   I’ve been having incredibly high anxiety lately so I’ve been leaning towards flowers to try and calm me.

♥   I feel that I’m becoming more socially awkward and I don’t know what has changed to make me be more anti-social…………….

♥   I am going to go online after this post and buy more flowers……

Anyway now after all this English talk, I’m thinking certain shows on Netflix are calling my name to watch. I’m the only one in my house that watches them, but I can’t help it. I love it and have watched British comedies my entire life. (And I’m obsessed with Monty Python….ooooooh ya….)

Anyway I hope you have a great weekend. I know I will. I have more planting to do. 🙂


Good night 🙂


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I don’t talk about my dad much. It’s uncomfortable and it takes a lot for me to uncover that part of myself. I don’t think I’ve allowed anyone in my life to really know that side of me because it seems  too difficult to discuss.

Why am I bringing it up now?

Because I have this friend.  She is just……lovely….amazing……strong………..and I truly admire her.

Today she said that her dad is going to get this HUGE award and family are able to attend, but because of flight tickets, it’s hard to scramble money that fast.  But as a girl and having your father in your life, it just feels important to me to have my friend there. I will never be able to attend an award dinner for my father, or see him on another Father’s day, or have him come over and play with my children. I’ve missed out on SO much and it’s truly a sore spot on me. I just felt how important this is to her and I feel as her friends we can pull together to help her see her dad.

$500.

Yup. My goal. I figured if about 20 people donate…….oh about  give or take $20……it should help…..so….I’m trying. She’s been there for me. Always checking in on me to make sure I’m ok. I know she is going through so much more than I am, but it makes me SO grateful that she is being there for me. I want to do what I can in return.

I know you don’t know her. I highly recommend you read her blog. You will be able to feel her strength and how inspiring she really is. 

I don’t expect you to donate money especially for not knowing her. But all of my friends are so dear to me and I would do anything for them.

IF you feel in your heart that you would like to donate anything…even if it is simply $5……….I can’t even begin to tell you how AMAZING that would be. You can go here….

DONATE TO KATE

I want her to enjoy this time with her father.  I feel that this will help me get out of this depression slump I’ve been in for the last 3 months. It hasn’t been terrible, but….I still feel this will somehow help me feel better knowing she is able to cherish this time with the first real man in her life.


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