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Ya it’s Saturday. But I’m just happy that I finally am able to write at all. It’s obvious I haven’t been on here for awhile and there are plenty of good reasons why. If you are interested in what has been going on you can check it out on my shop blog here. I just really don’t feel like writing that all up again. And also I don’t want to relive some of those feelings I had while writing it.
So now it’s time to do this confession thing. It will be pretty random, but that’s just who I am.
♥ I can tell that I’ve been struggling hard care lately with the lack of blogging. It has also affected me in pretty much everything else.
♥ I really hate going to funerals. But at the same time I feel that it refreshes me to not take things for granted and to live each day as if it was your last.
♥ Because of this I’m determined to some things I’ve been wanting to do. Just because I want to. Like learning new languages.
♥ My plans are to study Spanish, French, and Italian.
♥ I know very random, but I have my reasons.
♥ I have also been reevaluating bigger things in my life. Like to not worry about what others thing so much anymore. I won’t lie, I hate making enemies. But sometimes no matter how much you try to make things right or how nice and giving you try to to be, sometimes those people are just plain dicks and don’t deserve YOUR friendship anyway. So really, quit forcing it. Move on to people that do care and focus on making every moment count with them instead.
♥ Regarding my last comment, I am VERY thankful for the people that I do talk to. Everyday. You mean the world to me. I love you I love you I love you. You make everything run so much smoother and have this charm that always seems to make me smile. YOU ARE AMAZING.
♥ Also I’ve had to make some very big decisions to cut certain people out of my life. It was difficult. If I am going to try and have a happy life, I can’t have their negativity poisoning every moment. I can’t have them twist my every word into something bad when really it’s not like that, but they refuse to listen. I can only try so much. I can only give so much to you before I can tell it’s taking a toll on MY family life.
♥ It’s really hard to be motivated to do anything when you have two major events happen in a row. I know that I will bounce back and I’m hoping that it will kick in soon. I can tell that in ways I’m trying to fake certain feelings, but really…….it will only get me so far.
♥ I have a lot of major changes I need to make in my life, but I’m a little overwhelmed where to start.
I can’t promise right now that I’ll be better at blogging. I’m still grieving in ways of losing two people so close together. One through cancer and one because differences in opinions has torn us apart. I think in ways I’m still in shock and numb, but I know that today I am better than where I was last week. And I know next week I’ll be better than I am today. I have a wonderful opportunity that I’m hoping will happen. And if I do I will for sure be sharing the good news. This will probably be the best news I’ve had all year.
Regarding my ankle issue, it looks like I WON’T be getting surgery. I have nerve damage that we are trying to work on in other ways. I’m also going to physical therapy and that seems to be helping. Even though I’ve only been twice.
Now it’s time to start my day. And to find the motivation to get me off of this incredibly comfy couch. Every time I try to get up it seems to suck me back in. (But then I remember I have some shopping to do and it seems to make everything easier) 😉
Goodbye for now. I hope you have a great weekend.
I don’t talk about my dad much. It’s uncomfortable and it takes a lot for me to uncover that part of myself. I don’t think I’ve allowed anyone in my life to really know that side of me because it seems too difficult to discuss.
Why am I bringing it up now?
Because I have this friend. She is just……lovely….amazing……strong………..and I truly admire her.
Today she said that her dad is going to get this HUGE award and family are able to attend, but because of flight tickets, it’s hard to scramble money that fast. But as a girl and having your father in your life, it just feels important to me to have my friend there. I will never be able to attend an award dinner for my father, or see him on another Father’s day, or have him come over and play with my children. I’ve missed out on SO much and it’s truly a sore spot on me. I just felt how important this is to her and I feel as her friends we can pull together to help her see her dad.
Yup. My goal. I figured if about 20 people donate…….oh about give or take $20……it should help…..so….I’m trying. She’s been there for me. Always checking in on me to make sure I’m ok. I know she is going through so much more than I am, but it makes me SO grateful that she is being there for me. I want to do what I can in return.
I know you don’t know her. I highly recommend you read her blog. You will be able to feel her strength and how inspiring she really is.
I don’t expect you to donate money especially for not knowing her. But all of my friends are so dear to me and I would do anything for them.
IF you feel in your heart that you would like to donate anything…even if it is simply $5……….I can’t even begin to tell you how AMAZING that would be. You can go here….
I want her to enjoy this time with her father. I feel that this will help me get out of this depression slump I’ve been in for the last 3 months. It hasn’t been terrible, but….I still feel this will somehow help me feel better knowing she is able to cherish this time with the first real man in her life.
Oh my gosh YAY IT’S FRIDAY!!!!!! Oh I’m SO happy…..What a week it’s been and I’m SO glad that this day is here because it means that it’s FINALLY coming to a close!!!
So my confessions for this week are:
♥ As I said in my previous post I was given some not so fun news this week. I won’t hear results till probably next week so for now I will be keep it quiet. But I will say that it does scare me. It was a lot for me to accept when I was diagnosed with Celiacs. Now that I may have other things on top of if really isn’t my cup of tea.
♥ I can’t believe that all of this is coming from a stupid fall down the stairs.
♥ I’m extra paranoid this week because now my 6 year old has pink eye. Lysol wipes have been a great buddy of mine. 🙂
♥ Even though this week has been emotional, scary, draining, exhausting, and depressing, I have received some VERY good news that makes me feel like I can conquer the WORLD!
♥ Unfortunately I can’t share what it is yet.
♥ But still one of the happiest news ever from such a dear sweet friend. 🙂 ( I know you are going to read this. Looooove yoooouuu!!!)
♥ Besides getting married and having kids of course. 🙂
♥ But I am also very happy because we are planning a trip to Disneyland this year. 🙂 Squeeeeeeeee
♥ If you don’t know me enough by now, my Disney obsession is HUGE.
♥ I was actually going to college to be an animator for Disney/Pixar.
♥ And I wanted to work at Disneyland as a side job. But….I had another baby….and plans changed.
♥ The next closest thing I’ll be having is a princess party my SIL and I are planning together this year. She is going as Snow White and I’ll be Sleeping Beauty. I seriously can’t wait!!
♥ I finally am getting the hubs into collecting the Disney Big Figs. So far we only have 3, but that will soon change.
♥ But we are naturally collectors and big time geeks anyways so it works. 🙂
I hope you all have a great weekend. I get to take care of a little pink eye child and maybe get a little break since it has been a long week.
Before reading, please mute the music player!
Anywho, do you ever hear a song and instantly it takes you to a specific memory or reminds you of someone? (Good or bad.)
Well I was playing around with music today and came across something. This made me think of Derek. He LOVES The Rolling Stones. And on our wedding CD (which HE made thank you) he put a few Rolling Stones songs on there. Not all the songs on our CD really has anything to do with marriage or relationships, but he put them on there anyway because he really liked them. Ha ha!
But for some reason every time I hear this song, it makes me think of him. Then it makes me miss him THAT much more when he isn’t around.
Cheesy yes. But I don’t care.