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Ya it’s Saturday. But I’m just happy that I finally am able to write at all. It’s obvious I haven’t been on here for awhile and there are plenty of good reasons why. If you are interested in what has been going on you can check it out on my shop blog here.  I just really don’t feel like writing that all up again. And also I don’t want to relive some of those feelings I had while writing it.
So now it’s time to do this confession thing.  It will be pretty random, but that’s just who I am.
♥   I can tell that I’ve been struggling hard care lately with the lack of blogging. It has also affected me in pretty much everything else.
♥   I really hate going to funerals. But at the same time I feel that it refreshes me to not take things for granted and to live each day as if it was your last.
♥   Because of this I’m determined to some things I’ve been wanting to do. Just because I want to. Like learning new languages.
♥   My plans are to study Spanish, French, and Italian.
♥   I know very random, but I have my reasons.
♥   I have also been reevaluating bigger things in my life. Like to not worry about what others thing so much anymore. I won’t lie, I hate making enemies. But sometimes no matter how much you try to make things right or how nice and giving you try to to be, sometimes those people are just plain dicks and don’t deserve YOUR friendship anyway. So really, quit forcing it. Move on to people that do care and focus on making every moment count with them instead. 
♥   Regarding my last comment, I am VERY thankful for the people that I do talk to. Everyday. You mean the world to me. I love you I love you I love you. You make everything run so much smoother and have this charm that always seems to make me smile. YOU ARE AMAZING.
♥  Also I’ve had to make some very big decisions to cut certain people out of my life.  It was difficult. If I am going to try and have a happy life, I can’t have their negativity poisoning every moment.  I can’t have them twist my every word into something bad when really it’s not like that, but they refuse to listen. I can only try so much. I can only give so much to you before I can tell it’s taking a toll on MY family life.  
♥   It’s really hard to be motivated to do anything when you have two major events happen in a row. I know that I will bounce back and I’m hoping that it will kick in soon. I can tell that in ways I’m trying to fake certain feelings, but really…….it will only get me so far.
♥   I have a lot of major changes I need to make in my life, but I’m a little overwhelmed where to start.
I can’t promise right now that I’ll be better at blogging. I’m still grieving in ways of losing two people so close together. One through cancer and one because differences in opinions has torn us apart. I think in ways I’m still in shock and numb, but I know that today I am better than where I was last week. And I know next week I’ll be better than I am today. I have a wonderful opportunity that I’m hoping will happen. And if I do I will for sure be sharing the good news. This will probably be the best news I’ve had all year.
Regarding my ankle issue, it looks like I WON’T be getting surgery. I have nerve damage that we are trying to work on in other ways. I’m also going to physical therapy and that seems to be helping. Even though I’ve only been twice.
Now it’s time to start my day. And to find the motivation to get me off of this incredibly comfy couch. Every time I try to get up it seems to suck me back in. (But then I remember I have some shopping to do and it seems to make everything easier) 😉

Goodbye for now. I hope you have a great weekend.

xo

Woo hoo!!! It’s Friday friends! And I’m super excited. Even though I haven’t been feeling too hot today, but I’m still excited that it’s Friday.  I feel like this week has just gone on and on and on and on……..you get the point.

So for this week I confess……

♥  I am having a crafty weekend and I’m super excited. I never was really into crafts much until this past year. Now it’s all that I want to do.
♥  I am making glitter headbands.
♥  And I’m totally revamping half my closet.  Everything that is white, will be getting dyed a fun bright color.
♥  Oh and I’m still hating being completely glued to my crutches. Turns out I fractured my ankle. If I put any pressure on it, then I will completely break it. (gross)
♥  But I’m happy that we are not doing surgery as of now. I am terrified of surgery.
♥  I have had a total of 4 surgeries in my life. 3 C-sections  and also had had my gallbladder taken out.
♥  Doesn’t matter. I still don’t like surgery.
♥  I’ve been a much happier camper now that I’m not taking steroids anymore.
♥  THANK GOODNESS!!!!
♥  I’m getting pretty sick of Utah’s Bi-polar weather. Today it has been snowing off and on all day. Then it would go foggy. Then snow. Now, the sun has finally come out to play and is beautiful. Oh sun, please stay.
♥  I feel mixed. I have major cabin fever, but at the same time, being home as much as I have is making me more reclusive.
♥  Luckily I am having visitors tomorrow to get a fix.
♥  My shop is opening in less than a week. EEP!
♥  I got my Heart Sunglasses today from Urban outfitters. I have been wanting these forever!

Well, that’s all I have for now. I’m planning on taking pics of my lovely girls night out tomorrow. Even though it’s at my house so I don’t have to travel. And I’ll post pics of my stuff that I revamped. It’s so much easier to make your clothes look new instead of having to spend SO much money buying new stuff. And plus, you get to make it to your specifics. Even better! It’s nice to have something entertaining to do at home since I’m unable to go out. Luckily this is keeping me somewhat sane. 🙂

 

I hope you all have a great night.

Much love

♥ xoxo ♥

 

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This just reminds me of my childhood. I love it.

Me.

 

I look at this picture and try to remember what I was feeling that day.

 

I know that I was mixed with emotion.

 

Struggling.

 

In pain.

 

Happy.

 

Confused.

 

Thankful.

 

Why can’t I be happy with myself?

 

Sometimes I look at these pictures and think about the choices I have made and directions I have taken.

 

Why didn’t I take the other road?

 

I am stronger because of the pain I went through.

 

I am wiser.

 

I’ve made more mistakes.

 

I’ve learned from those mistakes.

 

Life has taken me on quite the journey. Lots of ups and downs.

 

But really if I hadn’t have taken those journey’s, I wouldn’t be who I am now.

 

 

 

I decided to dedicate this to my Sil.

 

 

I’m always proud of her. Not just these last few days, but always.  She has been my inspiration on multiple levels.  She is my favorite designer and is always coming up with these fabulous ideas on decorating. This is why I told her that I want her to decorate my house. 😉

Not only is she always making me laugh, feel accepted, help me feel my worth, give me great ideas……..

 

But she has been through some things that make her even a greater inspiration to me.  This year she was diagnosed with MS. Just shortly after she got married. It was pretty devastating to hear this especially since she is still so young, but as a family we have been able to pull through for her and show her our support.  I know that this has affected her greatly in many areas emotionally, but to me I think she handles it very gracefully.

 

I’m very proud of her for all the accomplishments she has done. And that she continues to find the little things to make her happy.

I’m also very proud to call her my sister in law.

(eh, she’s more like an actual sister)

 

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