Evil evil medicine

I know that I owe some pictures and stories about California, but something scary happened to me last week that has pushed it all back. It’s also going to take a few for me to get the pics from my camera onto here. That will be my next goal. For now I’ll talk about how I was basically starving and was dehydrated for about two weeks or so. I can’t remember exactly. These past few weeks have been horrible.
So I got on some medicine for ADHD and depression. I was put on Straterra and Depakote. Usually I don’t have bad side effects to medicine, but holy cow this stuff is definitely NOT good for me. Straterra makes you lose your appetite. That was pretty tough on me because anyone that knows me knows how much I LOVE FOOD. I get teased all the time about how I should weigh 800 punds because of how much food I can shovel in this mouth. So basically I was getting to the point where I was only eating once a day. If that. It sucked. And when I was in Disneyland I hardly ate. That’s one of the best things about going there is for food.

Ya. I was mad.

Depakote was making me naseous. It wasn’t until a week and a half after being on the medicine that I got really sick. I started to puke everyday without control. What was worse, I wasn’t able to eat much so it was like I was puking up nothing. I tried to drink as much as I could, but apparently it wasn’t good enough. After a week of throwing up everyday, this last Friday was the day it really hit me that something was seriously wrong. I was literally throwing up all morning long. I started to throw up blood. Instant panic spread, but I still made myself go to work. I didn’t want to abandon my boss because it was just us two and I felt it was my duty to at least show up. I tried to work, but I kept throwing up in the garbage.
Yuck,

After an hour my boss showed up. He didn’t really look at me while he was coming in, just talking. Finally he looked over at me and I said, “I think I need to go to the Instacare. I’m throwing up blood.” I felt so bad because you could tell that it was processing through his head what I just said.

Then everything started to go fast. We got someone to watch the phones and he took me to a local Instacare. Of course they figured that I was dehydrated and what not and ended up putting me on two liters of the IV drip. And you know after all of this, I still tried to go back to work.

Gotta love medicine. I wonder if anyone else has gone through this with this kind of medicine. I mean, I’m sure they have if not worse, but that was so horrible to even experience. I know that it scared everyone including me. I didn’t even care about being chastized by my doctor. I wasn’t staying on that crap anymore.

At least 3 days after being in the instacare, I’m finally getting my appetite back.

And anyone that knows me knows how happy I am about that!

Oh ya….anyone who is into seafood, let your mouth water!!! I know mine is…….

The panic of High School past……

So, I finally subscribed to Facebook. The only reason why is because one of my friends has been asking me to so I figured, what the heck….So I signed up and wow….. it was a panic attack waiting to happen. I never really was into a lot of people at school. I mean, I had my circle of friends and that’s what I liked. After I got my profile set up and ready, I browsed to see who else was on there. I found so many people that I went to school with and it seriously sent a shiver down my spine. Don’t get me wrong, there were people on there who are the sweetest ever and others I didn’t even know or remember, but the whole idea of High School made me throw up a little in my mouth. I know that for a lot of people it was great. I actually went to two High Schools. The first one was horrible and I vowed that I wouldn’t even go to any High School reunion’s. The second High School was amazing. Amazing teachers, people, everything. Doesn’t mean that I still feel at ease with it. Those were the most horrific awkward years and I have to say that I am really enjoying the adult life much more than High School. Not that 6 years of my life was peaches and cream, but currently I am enjoying it very much. I have 3 amazing kids, and a boyfriend that is just as amazing. I don’t think this is something I would ever want to pause just to go back to that life. I have had horrible things happen in High School and really, it’s just too painful to run into someone to bring that up.
I wasn’t the type that got picked on. I was too angry for that and honestly, people left me alone thank goodness. I just had something taken away from me that and I prefer to leave that in my past.
Sooooo…….anywho……I really gotta say, things rock now. I have come a long way of everything that I have had to experience and in a lot of ways, I feel that I have a 40 year old soul. This has built a lot of character and really, I wouldn’t change a thing.