Ya it’s Saturday. But I’m just happy that I finally am able to write at all. It’s obvious I haven’t been on here for awhile and there are plenty of good reasons why. If you are interested in what has been going on you can check it out on my shop blog here.  I just really don’t feel like writing that all up again. And also I don’t want to relive some of those feelings I had while writing it.

So now it’s time to do this confession thing.  It will be pretty random, but that’s just who I am.

♥   I can tell that I’ve been struggling hard care lately with the lack of blogging. It has also affected me in pretty much everything else.

♥   I really hate going to funerals. But at the same time I feel that it refreshes me to not take things for granted and to live each day as if it was your last.

♥   Because of this I’m determined to some things I’ve been wanting to do. Just because I want to. Like learning new languages.

♥   My plans are to study Spanish, French, and Italian.

♥   I know very random, but I have my reasons.

♥   I have also been reevaluating bigger things in my life. Like to not worry about what others thing so much anymore. I won’t lie, I hate making enemies. But sometimes no matter how much you try to make things right or how nice and giving you try to to be, sometimes those people are just plain dicks and don’t deserve YOUR friendship anyway. So really, quit forcing it. Move on to people that do care and focus on making every moment count with them instead. 

♥   Regarding my last comment, I am VERY thankful for the people that I do talk to. Everyday. You mean the world to me. I love you I love you I love you. You make everything run so much smoother and have this charm that always seems to make me smile. YOU ARE AMAZING.

♥  Also I’ve had to make some very big decisions to cut certain people out of my life.  It was difficult. If I am going to try and have a happy life, I can’t have their negativity poisoning every moment.  I can’t have them twist my every word into something bad when really it’s not like that, but they refuse to listen. I can only try so much. I can only give so much to you before I can tell it’s taking a toll on MY family life.  

♥   It’s really hard to be motivated to do anything when you have two major events happen in a row. I know that I will bounce back and I’m hoping that it will kick in soon. I can tell that in ways I’m trying to fake certain feelings, but really…….it will only get me so far.

♥   I have a lot of major changes I need to make in my life, but I’m a little overwhelmed where to start.

I can’t promise right now that I’ll be better at blogging. I’m still grieving in ways of losing two people so close together. One through cancer and one because differences in opinions has torn us apart. I think in ways I’m still in shock and numb, but I know that today I am better than where I was last week. And I know next week I’ll be better than I am today. I have a wonderful opportunity that I’m hoping will happen. And if I do I will for sure be sharing the good news. This will probably be the best news I’ve had all year.

Regarding my ankle issue, it looks like I WON’T be getting surgery. I have nerve damage that we are trying to work on in other ways. I’m also going to physical therapy and that seems to be helping. Even though I’ve only been twice.

Now it’s time to start my day. And to find the motivation to get me off of this incredibly comfy couch. Every time I try to get up it seems to suck me back in. (But then I remember I have some shopping to do and it seems to make everything easier)

Goodbye for now. I hope you have a great weekend.

xo

Even though I’m currently not working and my kids are out of school, you would think that the days would blend together and I wouldn’t be able to tell the difference. Well guess what….. I CAN tell the difference and to me there is something so special about Friday’s that make me so happy. I just LOVE Friday nights.  I have so many great memories and for some reason I just feel this sense of peace that I made it through another week…….

And now my friends, it’s confession time!

♥   This week definitely has had it’s ups and downs, but I have to say, after my Dr. appointment yesterday I am feeling great.

♥   I’m really annoyed how people think just because you can’t see pain they think it shouldn’t be there. Guess what jerks. Just because you can’t see it doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist.

♥   I’m really happy this doctor doesn’t think I need surgery. Surgery freaks me out.

♥   I’m also really happy this doctor gave me some options and is sending me back to physical therapy. AND gave me medicine to help with the neurological pain.

♥   Nerve pain REALLY sucks.

♥   I’m irritated that this other doctor I went to gave me NO OPTIONS.  I felt like he just wanted me out of there and didn’t want to bother resolving what’s going on with me.

♥   I’m seriously so sick and tired of this and want everything better.

♥   I’m excited to get back to work and at the same time I’m not.  I’m not looking forward to dealing with people who are going to smother me just because they are nosy and want to know everything.  Not because they actually care.

♥   I absolutely cannot stand when people are fake with me.

♥   I don’t care if you don’t like me, but don’t be sweet to my face then turn around and dig the knife in. Just ignore me. I’ll be fine. PROMISE.

♥   I wish that one of these days I could get the guts to tell this to someone face to face.

♥   On a happier note no surgery!!!!!!!

♥   YAY!!!!!!!!!

♥   Oh and I’m totally geeking out because Felicia Day sent me a tweet on Twitter. (seriously I about died with happy geekness)

♥   I heart her and I LOVE The Guild.

Hmmmm…..apparently I have some built up anger, but really I am good! I am looking at this opportunity to spend time with the little ones and be able to do things we haven’t been able to do for quite a while.

Now that I mentioned the Guild, I’m having a crazy hankering to play some W.O.W., eat some ice cream and watch some Zoolander. Kids are in bed so I need to take advantage.

I hope you all have a great weekend and Happy Fathers day to all of you deserving fathers out there! I am sad my father is not here to celebrate him, but he is in my heart and I will just use the time to celebrate my Father in law. He is just as wonderful.

And for now,

GOODNIGHT!!!!!

♥ xoxo ♥

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Well tonight my brain is focused on vacations and traveling. I LOVE to travel. And we decided for our anniversary this year that we want to go to Disneyland. I’m excited because I have been very careful with saving and made sure that I was limiting myself on spending so I could put the money away to somewhere I knew would be worthwhile. We also discussed going to Hawaii in the next 2 years and taking his parents and sister and her hubs with us. I don’t have a huge bucket list, but I do know that going to Hawaii is on that list. I have always had a love for that culture and if I could be a beach bum I would. I LOVE the hibiscus flower. It’s my favorite and I love it so much that I chose to have this flower with me forever.

So for tonight I have chosen to focus on my favorite flower.

I am all about night lights. I am not a dark fan and I love how sweet and simple this is.   (source)

I’m hoping one day that I can get my own art room. And I actually have been wanting it beach themed with Hawaiian accents thrown in there.

I would definitely get this.   (source)

I have been wanting a necklace like this and I’m SO happy that I finally found one I really really like!  (source)

I SO wish I would have found this for my wedding! I would have gone perfect with my dress!! (source)

I love lighting. To me it’s so calming and I feel so peaceful when I have calming lights around me.
This I would definitely have. It’s pretty and I love the lights with it.  (source)

This is making me crave the beach so much. It’s been years since I’ve been and I can tell that I’m having severe withdrawals from it. And looking at all of these are giving me great ideas on more art projects. (which I have more I’ll be posting soon!!!)

I hope you all have a lovely night. Now it’s time for me to relax and snuggle with the hubs.

♥xoxo♥

Yes it’s Monday. But it has felt like it’s been Friday all weekend since it blended together. I’ve been sick and miserable and I’ve had to put everything on hold. I feel bad, but really I didn’t have much of a choice.  So now it’s time to confess!

♥   First off I am really tired of the rain. It’s been raining almost everyday and I think that is why I have been getting so sick. I need sun!

♥   I’m still having a hard time adjusting to not working. I feel like I plan better when I’m under pressure. Which totally does not make sense to me.

♥   It’s the last week of school. What the crap am I going to do?

♥   On the bright side even though I’m still gimpy, I do have plans with the little ones to try and keep them occupied.

♥   This is the first time I’ve been home with the kids during the summer since they were born.

♥   Even though they can be little buggars, I am excited for it.

♥   I hope that I can get back in my groove of blogging. I feel being sick has taken over and not make me want to do anything.

♥   I am in love with my new little niece.

♥   Um……..she is a German Shepard puppy.

♥   I still call her my niece though.

Ok, time for more rest. I am completely exhausted and need some rest for tomorrow. Really I’m glad it’s the last week of school. At least I won’t have to rush to get them out the door.

Hope you all had a wonderful Memorial day.

Night.

♥ xoxo ♥

Oh yay Friday. One of the reasons why I love you so much is because I don’t have to wake up early tomorrow to get kids off to school.  And what would be even better is if this weather would stop raining so much.  I actually planted some flowers today and it was weird that I had to bundle up before going out. But oh how nice of the sun to decide to come out AFTER I planted my flowers. THANK YOU SO MUCH.

And now that it’s Friday, it’s confession time!!!!!!

♥   I secretly wish I could be a professional chef.

♥   I have been told that I watch The Food Network  the way a man watches porn.

♥   I could seriously watch Food Network all day and not get bored.

♥   I think it started when watching Julia Child when I was a child.

♥   I wish I lived in England.

♥   I have had a fascination with England since I was little.

♥   This is so girly, but I so want an English Cottage with English garden.

♥   One of my favorite shows of all time is “Keeping up appearances”.

♥   I told my SIL if something was to ever happen with our hubby’s, we should move to England and live in a Victorian house and make a giant garden.

♥   My husband thinks I’m crazy.

♥   I’m excited that I finally have my own yard to start building my dream flower garden.

♥   Um……….it’s still pretty naked.

♥   Don’t judge.

♥   I’ve been having incredibly high anxiety lately so I’ve been leaning towards flowers to try and calm me.

♥   I feel that I’m becoming more socially awkward and I don’t know what has changed to make me be more anti-social…………….

♥   I am going to go online after this post and buy more flowers……

Anyway now after all this English talk, I’m thinking certain shows on Netflix are calling my name to watch. I’m the only one in my house that watches them, but I can’t help it. I love it and have watched British comedies my entire life. (And I’m obsessed with Monty Python….ooooooh ya….)

Anyway I hope you have a great weekend. I know I will. I have more planting to do.

Good night

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Oh what an adventure this week has been for sure! And now it is yet again Friday and time for some confessions!

I confess:

♥   I went to the last Disney store we have in the state with my SIL today.

♥   It was the best.

♥   It got me more excited for Disneyland and December feels like years away!

♥   Now Disneyland is all my daughter talks about.

♥   Oh and a puppy.

♥   I’m still waiting to find out WHEN I can have surgery and it’s extremely frustrating. 

♥   I takes a toll on a person when you are extremely limited to what you can and can’t do.

♥   Seriously, this princess party we are having makes everything better.

♥   I fell in love with the Princess dresses they had at the store and secretly wish that I could still wear them.

♥   I planted flowers today and it was WONDERFUL!

♥   I got a little sunburned because I’m incredibly pasty.

♥   I’m not going to lie….it felt great.

♥   I would like to look a little healthy instead of always sick. ha ha

♥   I haven’t had ice cream in quite a while and I feel like it’s damaging my soul. 

♥   I wish that I had my own personal chef to make me food.

♥   Who doesn’t?

Anyway enough with the rambling. I hope that you have a great weekend. I’m looking forward to more gardening and possibly a date to see Thor.

♥ xoxo ♥

I know it’s been awhile.

Naughty naughty me.

I have a lot of making up to do which I PLAN on doing now that I have more free time. Soooooo I hope you are prepared.

So let’s just say last week mysteriously never happened. Ok???? ok………

So my Sil and I have been talking about having a princess party this year. Like full blown Disney princess party. We both want to be Disney Princess’s and figured since neither of us are moving to California, that we should just have one here. My daughter’s birthday is in October so we are having the princess party then.

In honor of the Disney Princesses, here are some things I found…… (be prepared….I’m doing all 10)

Snow white inspired dress……     (source)

These Cinderella shoes are perfect!  (source)

“Make it blue………make it pink!” Well, now you can have both!    (source)

I am loving this silhouette idea!!  (source)

Um, holy cow! This listing is actually for the little girls dress, but STILL! I’m planning on being belle for the Princess Party so I really need to find a dress for ME like this!!  (source)

I am loving these Jasmine earrings! (source)

This is a really creative Pocahontas hair clip! (source)

A cute take on Mulan!   (source)

I LOVE this Princess Tiana ADULT costume! It’s very well done!  (source)

Super cute Rapunzel invites! (source)

I am SO excited for our Princess party and can’t wait to share more peeks with what we are doing. We are going ALL out for this. I don’t think I will ever go as big for a princess party like we are for this. We want it as magical as possible and I think this will be as closest to Disneyland we can get in Utah.

Oh and 2 more things…………check out the Abbey Roo blog to enter in your ideas for a picture based on you! Please know that you do not need to be overly detailed or you can be as detailed as you want! But remember that you have until this Friday to get your entries in!

And last…..again as a reminder…..friends….if you are able to contribute at ALL to the lovely Kate to see her father please go here. He’s receiving a lifetime achievement award for his volunteer work advocating for children. The award is a surprise, and they’ve asked family and friends to be there to see him honored at this dinner.  I think this is WONDERFUL what he is doing and feel that this is something she should really go to. And as a friend, I want to help her out………..

Anyway, I hope you have a lovely night. I will be giving more updates on what is going on with my whole ankle situation at a later time.

Loves!

♥ xoxo ♥

Why am I bringing it up now?

Because I have this friend.  She is just……lovely….amazing……strong………..and I truly admire her.

Today she said that her dad is going to get this HUGE award and family are able to attend, but because of flight tickets, it’s hard to scramble money that fast.  But as a girl and having your father in your life, it just feels important to me to have my friend there. I will never be able to attend an award dinner for my father, or see him on another Father’s day, or have him come over and play with my children. I’ve missed out on SO much and it’s truly a sore spot on me. I just felt how important this is to her and I feel as her friends we can pull together to help her see her dad.

$500.

Yup. My goal. I figured if about 20 people donate…….oh about  give or take $20……it should help…..so….I’m trying. She’s been there for me. Always checking in on me to make sure I’m ok. I know she is going through so much more than I am, but it makes me SO grateful that she is being there for me. I want to do what I can in return.

I know you don’t know her. I highly recommend you read her blog. You will be able to feel her strength and how inspiring she really is. 

I don’t expect you to donate money especially for not knowing her. But all of my friends are so dear to me and I would do anything for them.

IF you feel in your heart that you would like to donate anything…even if it is simply $5……….I can’t even begin to tell you how AMAZING that would be. You can go here….

DONATE TO KATE

I want her to enjoy this time with her father.  I feel that this will help me get out of this depression slump I’ve been in for the last 3 months. It hasn’t been terrible, but….I still feel this will somehow help me feel better knowing she is able to cherish this time with the first real man in her life.

Oh my gosh YAY IT’S FRIDAY!!!!!! Oh I’m SO happy…..What a week it’s been and I’m SO glad that this day is here because it means that it’s FINALLY coming to a close!!!

So my confessions for this week are:

♥   As I said in my previous post I was given some not so fun news this week.  I won’t hear results till probably next week so for now I will be keep it quiet. But I will say that it does scare me. It was a lot for me to accept when I was diagnosed with Celiacs. Now that I may have other things on top of if really isn’t my cup of tea.

♥   I can’t believe that all of this is coming from a stupid fall down the stairs.

♥   I’m extra paranoid this week because now my 6 year old has pink eye. Lysol wipes have been a great buddy of mine.

♥   Even though this week has been emotional, scary, draining, exhausting, and depressing, I have received some VERY good news that makes me feel like I can conquer the WORLD!

♥   Unfortunately I can’t share what it is yet.

♥   But still one of the happiest news ever from such a dear sweet friend.  ( I know you are going to read this. Looooove yoooouuu!!!)

♥   Besides getting married and having kids of course.

♥   But I am also very happy because we are planning a trip to Disneyland this year. Squeeeeeeeee

♥   If you don’t know me enough by now, my Disney obsession is HUGE.

♥   I was actually going to college to be an animator for Disney/Pixar.

♥   And I wanted to work at Disneyland as a side job.  But….I had another baby….and plans changed.

♥   The next closest thing I’ll be having is a princess party my SIL and I are planning together this year. She is going as Snow White and I’ll be Sleeping Beauty.  I seriously can’t wait!!

♥   I finally am getting the hubs into collecting the Disney Big Figs. So far we only have 3, but that will soon change.

♥   But we are naturally collectors and big time geeks anyways so it works.

I hope you all have a great weekend. I get to take care of a little pink eye child and maybe get a little break since it has been a long week.

Night

xo

So remember how I hurt my ankle and it’s taking forever for it to be healed and how it’s going on almost 3 months? Ya…..there is a possibility they may have found something else…….we aren’t for sure yet….and we are still waiting on blood tests…..but I have been a wreck because it’s just ONE MORE THING on top of everything else that we need right now. So I haven’t been feeling that great and for that I apologize for not writing.

So on to happy times, when I was younger, I had major tomboy qualities. I did have my barbies and My Little Ponies, but when my brother would leave, I would secretly play with his toys and I LOVED it! One of my favorites to play (and even favorite shows to watch!) was Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. My favorite? Raphael.

We don’t have blinds in our room yet (I know, weird) and the sun LOVES blaring right in my eyes so this would be a pretty cool way to cover them up.     (source)

I love fun earrings and these are worth getting! (source)

K, this hat would be super fun for my boys, but I think this picture is super cute and funny!!! (source)

I so hope one of my friends get this……………………………(source)

This one is great for adult AND kid in you. A coloring book flask? This even comes with your own set of 12 jumbo crayons. Talk about awesome.      (source)

These make me want to play with them again and watch the OLD cartoons again. I’m sorry, but I can’t really get into the newer ones they have playing now. They just aren’t the same to me.

And I promise that I’ll be better at posting. It’s hard when you aren’t feeling well and are SO tired and in pain. But being able to post is something I truly enjoy.

But NOW…….onto something else……….

(weheartit)

Would you like to have something dedicated to you? don’t you think it’s fun when you see something out there and you think…..ya, that’s me…..that’s for ME, or that’s about ME? Well, now you can. My sister shop Abbey Roo is going to have a contest where YOU get to create a picture dedicated for you. You don’t have to be a fancy artist. Or even draw anything at all if you don’t want to. But this is still a time where YOU get to create. Head on over and send me ideas on a picture that YOU would like to see. You can either put it in the comment box or send a little sketch. I will be picking a random winner on May 13th. The Winner will get a print of the piece and it will be sold in my shop with it dedicated and named after them.

I am VERY excited to see what you all come up with and how creative you get. Remember, have FUN!!!

xo

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